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Monday, July 16, 2012

Drowning My Sorrows


(All pics. snapped on 7/16/12)

I'm supposed to be a happy person, I swearta god I am. My kids and my friends get to see the side of me that's goofy, easily amused, and fun-loving - all the time...even when I'm in the throes of something as heart-wrenching as what I've been going through lately. It's like, when I'm in their company - they bring out the lighthearted Lauralyn...which helps me to forget about all the bullshit for awhile. But just as soon as I'm all by myself, I immediately start to drown in the misery again...which would explain why my selfies and my blog posts are so often tinged with melancholy...since I generally snap the pics., and write about 'em when I'm alone. 












Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say more with these pics., and less with the words (per my continuing closed-mouth tangent) is - I finally drew the long overdue conclusion today (things are subject to change tomorrow, just so ya' know) - that it's absurdly ludicrous of me to put my life and my happiness on hold half the time these days - simply because I've let myself get sucked under by the mortifying reality that some stupid, fly-by-night, coldhearted jackass - gave me the fuckin' runaround...and that I'm just as much of a jackass, if not even more of one - for believing all of his lies...I'm smarter than that. I honestly am. Unfortunately though? Sometimes it just takes awhile before I figure these things out...

I realized that it's also comforting if I tell myself that the stupid jackass is the true idiot...and the one who really oughtta feel swallowed up by horrible sadness...but then again, he appears to have no feelings at all - so I guess that's just not an option.

Wow, see? That's amazing! I feel a million times happier already...



Thanks again, to the very nice man - who gave me not one, but two chances to take selfpics at his place!

8 comments:

  1. Wonderful set of shots ! Loved every one. Very telling of your current mood. My fave is the last,made me happy to see you out of the water ! Patrick (formaly known as mr. nikon!!)

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    1. @Patrick - I hate to even admit this, but I am still, for the most part - an emotional disaster area...I kinda wonder if I'll ever be able to shake this misery...

      I want you to know though, that it really does always cheer me up - whenever I hear from readers like you...even though it sometimes takes me awhile to come out of hiding to tell you so...

      Thanks for always being a pillar of support :)

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  2. Gorgeous, Lauralyn. I like how you've played with the colours, too. Making it greyer as the tub fills up, and then bright again as you fling yourself out of the water.

    xx Dee

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    1. @Curvaceous Dee - Yeah, BAby! I'm so glad to hear that it didn't just look like I'd spazzed on the editing, haha!

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  3. Great set (.)(.) of pictures!!!
    I'm sorry, I couldn't help it....;)

    AMC 7/19/12

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    1. @AMC - Not gonna lie...this comment made me laugh out loud when I read it while I was shopping for groceries - You a funny man!

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  4. Loved this set of photos. You always look great. Love how you spring to life in the last shot. I wasn't sure how you were with meeting your fans, but I saw you at sheets the other day and didn't know if you were cool with meeting your followers. You looked even more beautiful in personcthan I would have thought.

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    1. @Sean - I'm totally FINE with meeting my followers - you shoulda SAID something to me! I think I might've seen you, too...because of the signage on the truck you were in...I just had no way of knowing if it was actually "you" in it.

      Kinda funny though, I rarely look "beautiful" when I stop into Sheetz...quite the contrary, to be perfectly honest about it...

      Anyway, next time - i hope you'll say, "Hi"!

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